Out of nowhere after feeling really good I started stressing out about the dumbest shit which rarely happens and the funny thing about all this is I wrote this about 20 min prior.
January 6th 2021 1:35pm before, after and during the gym
If we take away value systems, the value of life and value of death are the same. Our brain determines what hurts and what doesn’ if everything is in our mind then what we think is “real” is just a thought in our mind and “real” is based in our society norms Meaning what we think is “real” is just as much of the programming as what’s in style and what’s good music, it’s a preference, meaning can be manipulated
What is real to people in this reality?
Physical matter
Pain
Emotions
Currency
If it’s really all in our fucking mind and we can minipulate what’s real (everything physical and non physical) then we can manipulate to change our environment, if this is true than can another person manipulate another’s mind? What would be the difference between somebody that can manipulate and be manipulated? Is it a conscious and subconscious mind? Is it a weaker mind?
This was strange to me, right after having a thought that I thought was fairly eye-opening I had a rush of stress and feeling of lack. Deep down I told myself none of the feelings I’m having are true and At that moment I truly knew what I was telling myself was the truth but the fact that I “felt” those things is what is hard to breakdown since it wasn’t actually how I felt it was like there were 2 pieces of me that were in conflict with the one I knew was wrong having the power to make me feel that way. My ego or my collections of “reality” over the past 26 years.
I need to take time and try and break this down further but for now I just wanted to write through how I was feeling since its one of the only times I witnessed in real time the conflict between my ego and soul. I knew the truth and my ego didn’t that needs to go because it’s not real I built on that foundation today with that understanding I wrote earlier today.