I’m sitting here at my desk right now and looking over at the building to the right of me with hundreds of desks lined up to each other. I start thinking why am I programmed to think that everyone is going to show up tomorrow as they do every day? Why can’t something drastically different happen? It really can the building could literally fall to the ground tomorrow.

 If all my judgment is is a program projecting normals of everything why can’t I change that? 

What would happen if I lived a life where I didn’t assume anything would happen again or I lived a life where I genuinely felt anything could happen? 

Why don’t I feel like anything can happen? There is no possible way for me to predict life or anything about it? Why would I want to? To keep me safe? If that’s the case I don’t need to be kept safe. 

I know I am safe regardless of my mind keeping me safe 

I can wake up tomorrow and someone in my family wins the lottery and gifts me 100k to start a business why isn’t that a possibility? 

I should wake up excited by not knowing the possibilities of every day because it can be something great my judgment or perspective could have never guessed. 

What if this is a large simulation? 

If im in a large simulation right now what is the purpose? What if this is just a glimpse of my life im living outside the simulation say 1 day out of my life but this seems to be 90 years? Would it be any different if times and illusion? No not really I’d practically be living the life im living until I change it right? What makes a life change? If my life were a blank piece of paper and everday I got to look at it at the end and see the result would it look the same? Yes probably. But why? I think it has to do with my outlook on life if I have predetermined outcomes or should I say if I come one with these so called projections on what will most likely happen if I do A why should anything change? All the actions would have to be the same why wouldn’t they? They will always be the same if I think the same.

Its like ground hog day my days are going to be filled with the same thing daily unless I make an effort to change them to move forward change the page in front of you by taking steps forwards 

Small steps equal change I can’t skip steps or can I? Taking action towards things allows me to jump steps and hack the code if I play the game I can cheat it but if I don’t play there is no way to make leaps 

I like the thought of everyday being a one dimensional page that looks the same I am running the same code over and over every day the outcome will not change unless my actions change thats pretty obvious. 

How important are my thoughts? 

How important are my actions? 

What do each mean? Are they seperate or are they together 

The more I play the game the easier it is to leap forward and manifest  

I could quit my job and move to a different country where I have   to value a businessman and he hires me as a consultant  at $10000 a month I then learn the ins and outs of real estate and take 100k and turn it into 250k by this time I will have a great start in real estate and growing business It only takes one or two good moves to make a career in something and give myself financial freedom. I am open to these possibilities. I’m dropping this cookie-cutter way of life I can wake up tomorrow and make anything happen I think big and anything is possible in the reality I live in. I’m not attached to the outcome! I set intentions and take action whatever happens along the way is ok with my I will change direction at any point and be ok because I know the destination I seek is inside. Happiness is always the goal and if I attach myself I only create scenarios of disappointment when it really doesn’t matter. 

Someone with 1 billion dollars that is extremely happy is the same as someone making 3k a month that is extremely happy… what’s the difference happy is happy! It’s all an illusion 

Why do I need to want the same thing other people want? 

I came across this question in the tao te ching and it made me think why do I strive to be like others and want nearly all the same things others want? 

I often have the internal conflict of freedom from $ and attachment to the money I honestly don’t know what would be more honorable the fact that I was able to detach from outcome completely in my life or the fact that I was able to attach myself to money and have physically anything I wanted. I don’t know what’s more impressive and when I say more impressive who would the impression be upon? In no reality would I want to impress so that leaves no one and if there is no one I just have myself and when I ask myself this question I feel like I know what the right answer is but don’t know if I have the courage to take the leap into complete detachment. 

Is there a reality where I have both? Of course, there is because I can live in whatever reality I can conceive that means that the issue lies in me not being able to vision a reality where I completely detach from everything and live a free life that’s limitless. This needs to be what I set my intentions on from now on. 

What would this reality look like? 

I would not worry about $ because everything would come from creation. I would create something and demand $$ for my idea or create a vision and have someone else finance my vision. I don’t need to have the money or feel lack of it because at the end of the day I can create the means or find the means needed to make the vision a reality 

I would wake up excited and in a state of bliss because that’s the natural state we are in when we have no attachments. All my negative feelings come from some attachment. An attachment to who I want to be or how much money I want or what level of freedom I want to have.. There is a flaw in that logic though because at that very moment I have all that I want.. Literally I can’t be all of those things or express all disciplines the very moment I feel the desire. 

I need to focus way more on the now moment since it’s all in the now moment.

I’m no happier now than I was 10 months ago with no money I just have fewer desires since my “money problems have left me” Really I didn’t have money problems then I just had desires for something other than what I had. If I dropped those desires all that would be left is bliss. 

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Not sure what I’ll keep adding to the list but I will just touch on the things that come across in my day or what I read. 

The few things that jumped out at me today

If I’m not satisfied with myself that must mean there is 2 of me and if that’s true its true that the one I’m not satisfied with is not real..

This was in the power of now and it made me think about Who is not satisfied with who? What one of those do I Identify with and if I’m not satisfied with that person why don’t I kill him? 

Who am I not satisfied with? The person that judges things the person that limits himself the person that stands in his own way .

How do I kill this fraudulent version that is my controlled mind? 

It makes a lot of sense that this person can only live in my mind and when I’m in the present moment he can’t exist. 

I could say program my mind to not partake in these habits but then I’d be forming habits on top of habits and I don’t believe anything can exist but what exists in the now moment. The pure bliss that comes with this is all that is needed. I will be able to access the power of all at that moment because the now is the power of all that is. 

Why is anything possible in the now moment? The now moment contains everything in the universe and when I access it I am acting like the universe and pure creation. 

To think that I can predict the future and react in a way to mitigate risk is just stupid.. It’s basically me saying that I know the only outcome so I will live accordingly. In the next 5 months, I have nothing spectacular in my plans but I plan to live it out and accept that… Why is that? 

Why do I accept that and expect that? Why does that make me feel good? 

I should set my intention and take action toward creation and happiness.

I could film the Baldwin show and get it picked up by the first person I pitch it to I get a great deal write myself into the show make 1 Million dollars my first year and invest in real estate and get paid to live and have fun… That’s one of 1 million possibilities and I should not become attached to the outcome or predetermine my outcome I will know the general direction I want to go and have fun doing it staying in the present moment as much as possible that’s where the magic happens

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What’ s the difference between someone that has unlimited money and someone that has enough money to survive? 

The first thing that comes to mind is perspective. When asking these questions ultimately I’m speaking on happiness, what’s the difference in happiness. 

Eliminate all desires of what others want that comes from society and I believe that the happiness levels could be the same. I feel that there will be emptiness in boths individuals lives without some type of growth. 

Does someone with $ have more opportunity for growth? Debatable. 

I think freedom is definitely something that comes with having money that not having money doesn’t have. 

I think this is why I’d like a place that I can call my own that I can always retreat maybe it’s paid off and has internet that way I can work on ideas that I have. 

I feel like this freedom would let me live freely and creatively with absolutely 0 obligations on my end. 

In this now moment I have everything I want and one could say that I already have the freedom I seek from having a space I own 100% the only thing that creates the barriers is my mind and belief in the future.

Basically I’m stating that at some point I would run out of money and struggle to pay rent when that’s not a reality at all this is just something that has happened in my past so I feel it’s real when it’s not at all. 

Back to my attention I feel like it’s easier to have the mindset you need to succeed when you already have money in return you start making more money because you have the mindset and beliefs that you may not have when you’re living poorly 

How do I feel as a Millionaire?

Practice feeling 

Deep meditation on mindset 

Conscious checks during the day to see if i’m feeling abundant and of someone that is wealthy. 

Affirmations 

Picture visualization Feeling as if it’s mine and why 

I could spend my time learning everyday for the next year and create wealth the next. 

Time doesn’t exist

Holy shit time does not exist I forgot this and when I sit here and think about it it makes so much fucking sense it’s like the social norm is stuck on  circut board of time and if you can jump off this time map you will be free and be allowed to create

How does time take away from your goals or manifestations? 

If time doesn’t exist all you’re left with is feeling if feeling is the root of all things it would only make sense that it is the root of creation 

Not even in a hippy way, literally our feelings lead to actions. Action leads to outcomes 

What comes before feelings? Nothing unless you’re in a controlled program 

What have I been feeling lately? 

Stressed 

Overwhelmed 

Not in control 

Why? 

Learning new things 

Am what I learning the right things I should be learning? 

Eh I think learning to work hard is great and it will set the bar higher than it was before. 

I should be failing more I think through setting up systems. I’ve failed only a few times this last month and I don’t think that’s good enough. 

If learning is only associated with time then unlearning is spiritual and now 

Unlearning is spiritual 

Unlearning your programing through what ? 

How do you unlearn your programing? 

Form new habits you choose? No those would still be influenced.

Silence… 

Reprogram yourself then run on autopilot to manifest the world you programed 

Revisite this program and make tweeks

If money isn’t what I desire what is it? 

Fulfillment – 

Purpose – I don’t feel like I need purpose

Potential – What does this mean? Is this the mind being freed? 

I think that life will get very boring if I don’t get excited by pushing myself. 

I need to learn to get excited and challenge myself. Money isn’t going to make my life more exciting I am going to. 

If you play the game you can cheat. If you sit out you will relive this day forever. 

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If the root of every habit is identity what is a habit? 

It’s then a program right? I step into a pair of shoes that makes me feel athletic then I’m athletic regardless of my ability. I continue to run the program over an over and I become a better athlete. 

What does this mean though why with certain smells I can trigger motivation? Why isnt motivation in me automatically? 

Is it because at one point I felt motivation and I associate myself with that smell? 

Have I fallen out of touch with success and what I once strived for? 

I mean I’ve always wanted to be successful but at one point I felt it stronger than now.

I’m currently striving to just get back to that feeling? 

What’s the difference between someone that pushes past the normal and becomes great?

Upbringing? 

Inspiration and interpretation? 

What happens when these people that make a huge impact on the world die? 

Does that energy get passed on through thought and perspective change? Yes, I feel that it does. But what does that mean for the next greats? 

Some people do it for the money others do it impact and monetary benefits 

Could I study these people and catch some of that inspiration? No I think momentarily yes but not long term. How can someone get long term inspiration? Enough to push through the hard times and distractions.

It’s very possible but how? 

The now moment, feeling, no input from the outside world? We really can’t project things that happen we can to some extent but what about this.

I come across a deal or business idea that changes everything. 

The success would be then be out of my hands and everything leading up to that moment would be the reason for success. I have to have faith and open up to these opportunities.

How can I get in front of these deals or opportunities? Just because most people think its hard doesn’t mean it’s hard because it’s definitely out there. 

The possibilities are limitless and there’s no such thing as hard it’s all about timing and faith. 

If I prepare and accept what is it will be If I want something else I must accept it and move towards it. Time is an illusion so what does moving towards it mean? It couldn’t mean anything other than changing my belief 

Laurices website makes $10k a month and we have $40k a month in contracts. We have a real estate investment company that we’re constantly building we do whatever we want. We have a house on the water with jetskis we ride every morning 

We also have a large property with a side by side that we can get away to often 

We enjoy living life and the fruits of our labor. 

We are serial entrepreneurs that have a deep understanding of business, technology, and real estate. 

We are constantly growing and upgrading in life. 

We are building businesses to sell. Tight and automated. Constantly learning new trends and paying attention to where this world is going. 

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Why don’t we do the things we need to to make our dreams come a reality? 

The simple act of doing something you don’t like doing isnt actually painful nor is it actually physically hard. So that leaves one thing in my mind its mentally tough for you to take control of your mind to push past the discomfort.

How easy though all I need to do is push past my mental comfort in order to reach my goals and make my dream a reality. 

So the training shouldnt be goals it should be routines and habits that push  you out of your comfort zone since that zone is going to be the closest thing you can come to mental discomfort. 

Then when you’re faced with something you’re dreading in business you’ve already conditioned your mind to push through and accomplish it. 

Why do simple tasks seem so hard to my mind or create so much discomfort? 

Lack in self belief? 

Comfort? 

I would say it comes down to comfort and doing bare minimum. Why do I perform bare minimum? 

What can I do to avoid doing bare min? – Set up the shocker treatment 

Why can’t I focus on a larger business and make that happen? 

Why am I focusing on $40k a month when some people make $1,000,000 a month? 

Is it my belief in myself? 

I think its a belief in the overall structure of things. I must get x amount of $ before I feel comfortable moving into a new business or trying for something larger. 

Ultimately if I want to achieve something big I need to start building it. I need to start building a business while I am making money. I need to find something that I really believe in and build that business out. I guess we could say that about the websites we’re building but I don’t feel passion there just yet, Maybe once they start forming I will latch onto one. But as of now they are just vehicles for $$$. Action Item 

Is it that I don’t have a road map and the $40k is almost guaranteed? 

Why do I stress if I have faith that I will be successful? 

Is stress what pushes me? 

Why does stress motivate me? 

Me hating confrontation most likely is why I am pushed by stress of not performing well.

That’s why I put so much effort in the beginning of a contract so that I have some breathing room if I mess up down the line. 

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Back at this again for some reason this highlighted I like it the google and I are one and they know that what I’m writing is pure fact. I was just thinking about how I do things and when I set my intention its just to complete or get it started, why don’t I have the end in mind being as big as it possibly can be? 

Example why when I think of the websites I think 50k monthly income no more than that? Why don’t I think each site is going to be the biggest site in that genre and produce Millions of dollars a month? This is the exact thinking that needs to be broken if the systems I set up are focused on getting us to 50k a month then they will get there but in order to get to the millions my mind has to shift.

Why do I see things this way? Past? Belief in myself is low? I don’t think I’m valuable enough to drive that much value? 

My personal brand is going to be the largest in the entrepreneurship space I will have the largest youtube that will live in via collaborations and authority. 

Our websites are going to make up for hundreds of millions of dollars a year. 

Our net worth is going to be in the upwards of 100 million dollars 

We are going to grow these companies exponentially and be able to travel and live free 

THINK BIGGER 

The largest celebrities on the platform 

Media department that puts out tv shows and movies 

Own the largest sex toy company backed by the #1 sex site 

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What do I want my world to look like? How do I want to make an impact? What do I want to create? Why is my personal worth surrounding finance when it means so little sure it allows freedom but if I wanted true freedom I would be going off the grid and setting that up so I have a sustainable living source. 

Why are some people great while others remain brainwashed?

Why are some different? If the universe is pure why are people brainwashed?

I want to make an impact on the earth in a positive way

I want to be free

I want to build my personal value in relationships not only income 

What areas do I want to change? 

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A connection with self what is it? I feel that a connection with your soul isn’t something that just happens and everyone has. I feel that as time goes on most individuals drift from this and get overtaken by society’s inflictions. Maybe this is just my experience, many of the things I feel to be true for everyone else are things I’ve experienced so they feel more real, the difference was I’ve been able to be self aware and break  a lot of the programing where others haven’t. Connection with self feels to me like I’m supported by powerful entity that has more answers than myself being someone that feels like they need to be in control of everything I often times sabotage what I’m doing and now that I have an additional support that works outside my physical reality I feel much better I feel like I can let go and things still will work out for me. This paradigm shift was the result of only a few hours of studying.

As humans we think that WE are the ones in power and WE will make things happen but we don’t think about how we came here, what we were before this, I guess christians might actually think this and people in religions do and I’ve never went to church so I lack this awareness but I feel most religions are tainted by $$$ and greed so I can’t really appreciate what its actually good for.

Where we came from is much more powerful than where we are. The world didn’t create us, we were created by something else meaning that anything in this world also is created by something or somewhere else. We don’t give this power to anyone and our ego likes to take credit for everything we do. This is so powerful once we realize this! We need to create in a more systematic way only giving ourself 30% of the work and god/higherpower/invisible self/ energy the other 70% of work. The thing is this aligns so very well with who I am as a physical being so I should have no problem doing it. 

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What is power? Is to held by someone? Is that power on earth different from the power in which we came from? It is, the power on earth mean little in the larger picture, we should realize the the power on earth isnt the the hands that hold our souls our souls are current subdued, which is the result of the currents powers grasp.

How can others escape this grasp? Would it be beneficial for them to escape or would they live a less happy life? 

Are we here to live for our egos or souls? 

I think we are heavily programed to live for our egos but not our souls which is very unfortunate when all that matters is our souls. 

Living in a material world means nothing and can only be so fulfilling even at the highest level .

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